Adelaide's Attempts

Since the breakup, I have tried everything to distract my emotions from what I am actually feeling. As much as I hat to admit it, I am still a lot of times not okay. I want to be and I am embarrassed that two months later, I am still crying over someone who doesn't want me. I sit at home praying for a sign from God that we are meant to be and he is already dating for all I know. I can't talk to my family or friends really about this because they are all in long term marriages

Yesterday, I did something that scared me in a good way. I took myself on a hiking day trip. I wanted to connect more with nature so I did. I listened to what I wanted and it was totally worth it! Views from my drive to Enchanted Rock I got up at 6 in the morning , got dressed, and did my Bible study. This week has all been about prayer and that you don't have to make it a formal thing. You best believe that I was sitting there telling God that I could not end up on an episod

The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of really hopeful highs and really life-sucking lows. The best thing though has been my amazing friendships. This is a post just for my people who got me. To my students, thank you for the distraction and the laughs. Y'all make every day just a little bit better and a little bit easier. Without y'all, this month would have completely drained me, but y'all keep me going. I see the ways that y'all hype me up and I appreciate all of it. I